Saturday, May 22, 2010

This is not Ginsberg's India

Hey, I am in India and my laptop wont charge so I wont really be blogging. The flight was long and lonely and I am not really looking forward to the flight home. I just found out I will be traveling alone again in three weeks. Entering the Chennai airport is a cinch, but leaving is a hassle with customs and all.

Well, nothing about this place has changed other than me. I am a very different person than in 2008. I guess back then I didn't have so many goals at home and so this place was new and open and I loved it easily. I do still love it, but am actually missing home.

For years I was filling the jar with with the small stones. They didn't amount to much. but they were fun and easy to carry. Over the past year, I have smartened up and started filing my jar with the largest stones. They are very hard to carry and sometime the fight is so tough I want to drop them. Once I place them though, and see how much closer I am to only have small stones to carry, I feel lifted and free and ready for another big one.

I received all A's again and Dee has just one semester of classwork to graduate. Hard stones to carry, but worth it. I know that I will one day be free to find peace, but now I have to practice balance.

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